A deep well.

I hate when little things make me really grumpy.

For instance, I've had an Iphone since January. I got a case as soon as I got my phone. Since I'm midly OCD when it comes to certain things, when my case got a little messed up I took it off and ordered a new one (this was about a month ago.) I also didn't want to spend a lot of money so I went on Amazon and found a case for $2.57, which was awesome. Little did I know that a month later it still wouldn't be here. Tonight I looked in my email at the confirmation that it sent and it said it won't be here until AUGUST 7TH!!!!! This seems a little ridiculous that it would take 2 months for a case to be here, granted it is coming from somewhere in China...go figure.

Now lets back up a little. From January until early June my phone didn't have a scratch on it. The 4 days after I ordered my new case I dropped it and it got a crack in the bottom right corner. No big deal. 2 days after that I dropped it in the toilet, which I have never done in my life - no lie. I put it in rice for a day and it was fine. Fast forward to today where I dropped it again and just put it back in my pocket without looking at it only later to realize that the whole back side of my phone is like a jigsaw puzzle.

Part of me feels like calling Amazon and complaining. What would I say? That its ridiculous that it would take 2 months for something to come to me. What am I supposed to do without a phone case for 2 months? 2 months!?!?!

***takes a deep breath***

I hate that this makes me so upset. Does it really matter that my phone is cracked to death? No...Yes....No, no it doesn't. I want it to matter. But it really doesn't. I'll just keep trying to tell myself that and maybe eventually I'll believe it.

As a kid (and even as an adult) when I fall apart a little things, like my phone cracking, my mom has always said, 'you have to have a deeper well than that.' You can't just let your whole world fall apart because one little thing tipped your scale a little to the right or left. This is really hard for me sometimes because sometimes the little things do seem to matter a lot. And we do live in a world where if everything isn't exactly the way you think it should be then it isn't right, according to you. What does having a deeper well mean, you might ask. It means not being empty. It means not filling yourself with things that don't matter. It means being full of things that do. For me and my family it means spending time in the Word, praying, singing, spending time in worship, spending time around people who are good influnces and who lift you up...etc. It means that when something stupid happens, like your phone breaking into a thousand pieces, you realize that there are more important things in life and when it comes down to it having a perfect Iphone isn't all its 'cracked' up to be.

You've probably heard something like 'don't sweat the small stuff.' Well having a well to draw from when things are falling apart is kinda like that. It means that when things aren't going your way you have a well, that is full of good, love, inspiration, Bible verses,....full of Jesus. This may sound really dumb but the Bible says we can cast all our cares and worries on Him. And I really believe that even my stupid Iphone being cracked (that even as I write still makes me upset) is a worry I can cast on Him. I think He cares about the small stupid stuff that I worry about.

So I'm gonna try to go to bed and cast the worries of this day on Him. (And hopefully get a new phone tomorrow. I'm still a work in progress:))